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I am an ordinary soul but have no interest in living an ordinary life

When I say I love life, it doesn’t mean I don’t have problems or heartache, it means I don’t let that stuff get in my way.

I live the way most will never understand. I have paid my dues and then some but it didn’t make me bitter, only stronger…. and it did not happen over night, or on bended knees. It was a long time coming to meet what unfolds everyday, and taking my limits to the bitter end. It was releasing self-imposed ideas and a lot of people (family and friends) who tried to show me a “better way”…. not that they (family and friends) are gone from my life; they are simply not running my decisions and emotions anymore. 

I gave away “I care” and replaced it with carefree. I sat with my pity, my self-loathing, and childish ego for long conversations and received no logical response BUT I found a lot of insight in my own query. I discovered that most of it (my stuff) was purely unfounded illusion and expectation of the way life “should” be.

To say, “yes” to the world and my illogical life seemed to open my eyes to more than the tiny little self I became in my tiny little bubble of “No”. I found expansion is freedom located in the form of acceptance that equates to simple possibility and “yes” is the key.

We can do one of two things – we can work with life, or let life work us. So if you feel abandoned by happiness you have chosen to be worked over (which happens to all of us at some point) just know we don’t have to stay there downtrodden and beat-up. It isn’t about fighting; it is simply knowing when enough is enough and getting rid of restrictions.

Don’t hate your life, nothing can come to us in the mind-set of hate… it slams the door shut tight in our face. Give life some love and I promise life will love you in return. Yes, it really is that simple. (dl)

FIGHTING FOR PEACE

…. and it is said, “Some things are worth fighting for...” – this is a truth however, it is futile to fight for PEACE.

It is not cowardly to walk on. It is not weak to disengage and brute strength can never overpower grace. Peace resides in the heart of the wisest soul who knows and possesses this principal. Peace is a basic need, an instinct, and we all desire to live in it.

In fight mode there is anger, hatred and dissension and those emotional boundaries divide us from the very thing we long to have - because there is a simple concept that accompanies opposites; one cannot exist without the other. So to “fight for” peace is futile. When we fight, we compete. A competition needs a victor. A victor destroys the opposition and if there is no opposition, there is nothing. Let it be…

It is good to practice any aspect you want for betterment, but you cannot destroy the other side of yourself. We have to learn to appreciate what are inherently human qualities (good and bad). That is totality.  This doesn’t mean we hold vigil to honor what we are against, it means we find the balance, and stay in neutral as we position our self to rise.

There is nothing to hold us stable when we are fighting for stability – simply put:

The only way to have peace is to be peace.

Ride the winds of this concept, let the ego/pride reside and then there is not one thing to fight for, there is only love. Peace will take your hand, serenity unfolds and you can breathe this in.

Peace feels good - the touch is gentle and the aroma is pure bliss. (dl)

I don’t have regret I have curiosity…

The wonder of “what if” crosses my path now-and-then and stirs my imagination, but there will never be a way to know or a way to tell how the unseen would have played out….. just a thought of a possibility that slipped away under the guise of choice. 

.... and I would not change one thing in my life because I truly understand the ripple - (knowing good times as well as bad times had a huge impact) I am grateful. So as I have aged (and thankfully received a bit of wisdom) I am a little more reserved, more thoughtful and more cautious with decisions. My spontaneity is not gone, it still envelopes my essence, but all this means is I am quicker to say “NO” and mean it.

The point is: We can make the next moment amazing, or simply ruin it with “what if” -dwelling there removes our sensibility and it is futile. 

* (Let the past stay there where it belongs.) 

Thoughts like "It could have", "it might have", or the real version "it didn’t happen..." are the only things we know for sure. So when the past rises give it a smile or perhaps an internal bow - but remember it is the Universe, the imagination, the intuition (the 3rd eye) that really gets the credit of who and where we are now. 

It is said, “curiosity killed the cat” - I say, the cat has nine lives. (dl)

I am not what you think I am…..

We are the all, we are nothing - and we shed our persona daily. The skin that holds us together changes, dies, and revitalizes until the circle of life puts us in another form…. and even then, someone will still try to pigeon-hole us as this way or that. But I guess that is what people need because when you get right down to it, no one really knows, no one really cares, and no one can say differently (without a lie crossing their lips) and speak to what happens to us in absolute validity –

Is it just cause, cause and effect, or the ever-popular ‘karma’ that takes us from one dimension to another? No one can be sure. 

The truth is: There is not one single truth; there is 7billion and counting so the big picture is totality. We are a working humming organism of chaos and most of us (myself included) have a very hard time trying to wrap our head around all the things (like this) that we really do not know.

I do not pretend to understand my mind, my purpose, and what is beyond it. We (you and I) go about our business. Some do it with passion, some with indifference and some with malice but in the end, I suppose there is a price to pay.  

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust - All I can hope for this: that the next time around, (if there is one….) I will fly (dl)

~ Call "it", as we see it...

When we call our self-out as the “Godself” it isn’t about wanting power, admiration or worship.  It is a direct kinship with everyone and everything that is within our view; and anyone one who believes that they are more superior then you or I is not in touch with this concept. 

Ironically, the magnitude of that idea scares many, yet many profess, “we are one” - 

So to really get behind the mantra, we must have the knowing, the compassion, and the tolerance to embrace it all - Not just the beautiful side (beauty is easy to behold) but to embrace the bad and the ugly as well. 

We are what we love and adore, hate, and or don’t care about in our self and others. 

We are as real as we want to be no matter what it looks like or what you call it. 

There isn’t a separate self.….. and love shows up when you behold this brilliance in the nature of all things (all of it.) It shows up when we are and thrilled as we smell the essence, savor the delicacy; remember the images. 

It is important to carry and include the memory of our self as a part of it all as well. (The Godself) the truth and the way. 

Once you get it, once you see it - you will never view life with the same eyes. Then using your vision wisely and with love, this view will carry you past the terror of fear, lift you up with all its strength, and set you gently into your dreams.  (dl)

Solace

~ In times of sadness and desperation it is natural to seek out relief via another vehicle (i.e. someone else to validate our pain and to fix it) but please beware that No One has the ability or the authority to do that. And while finding temporary comfort in warm words, or the touch of another’s presence is a beautiful way to take the edge off - in the end, the responsibility is our own to get it right…. 

It has to be understood that along side our pain we get to do the work. Repeat, “get to”. That work is our salvation. Although it is a double edged sword, the sword has the ability (when accompanied by love) to cut through the toxic B.S. we ensue. Use it properly and it will make room for gratitude no matter how ugly the situation is - 

So when we are looking for the neat and tidy answers we want to hear instead of a raw heart truth - those intensely wanted words can work against our inner healing. They only serve (momentarily) as a band-aide that simply covers up the mess. 

If commiseration is really needed... run to it but don’t forget it is not anyone else’s job to repair what has been broken, slashed or disturbed. Hopefully they (the commiserators) can hold some light for you to honor what is truly going on. A light for you to look at it (the pain); touch it; feel it; and put a name to it without playing the blame game – (Blame tends to make us weak and spiteful.) 

We are all here learning to ride the wave of the world and to get better, not bitter. 

The power to find solace is in our own hands…

Take it on, to move on and may peace be your companion. (dl)

~ Centered.....

The pendulum swinging is a measure of time and space and our emotions don’t need to follow…

Outward expressions can be impressive yet oh-so vacant as the emotional eruptions peak, then fade into the background. I know emotion is our nature, but neither the good or the bad needs to be overly expressed or dramatized. 

As soon as emotion is untied/untethered from happiness or sadness - our inner feelings will really mean something inside…So let be personal, let it fill you, let it move you to silent tears and then, balanced (centered in grace) emotion just goes in deeper. 

Of course life is easier on the up side but remember too much of anything only makes us tilted. 

When we are not in a high or a low the presence of gratitude will remain longer in core stability, and sadness will dissipate and heal faster. If we are tipping to one side or the other, we can't be in our truth, it is obviously unbalanced - truth is found in the middle way. 

Calm everything down, way down - take a breath…. and let it be. Centered. Balanced. whole. (dl)